STORY OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW! HMMM dang trey

Look what this girl … did to me
She didn't cut me off from a good good love
She told me that those days where gone

Now I'm sitting here goin' half crazy
'Cause I know she still thinks about me too
And it ain't no way in hell
That I can be just friends with you

And I wish we never did it
And I wish we never loved it
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now it ain't no way we can be friends

The way it felt no fakin' it
Maybe we were movin' just a little too fast
But what we've done we can't take it back

Now I'm sitting here halfway crazy
'Cause I know she still thinks about me too
And it ain't no way in hell
That I can be just friends with you

And I wish we never did it
Trey Songz Can't Be Friends lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/trey-songz-cant-be-friends-lyrics.html

And I wish we never loved it
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now it ain't no way we can be friends

And all I can say is
La la la la la la la (la)
La la la la la la la la la (la la la ooh)
La la la la la la la la la la (hey)
Ain't no tellin' what we could have been
Ain't no tellin' what we could have been (no)

And if I knew it ends like this
I never would have kissed you cause I fell in love with you
We never would have kicked it
Girl now every things different
I've lost my own recoverin' my friend

That's why I wish we never did it
Oooh yea
And I wish we never loved it (I wish we'd never loved it)
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now it ain't no way we can be friends (we can't be friends)

La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la

I love to laugh and smile and this weekend has really made me happy :) always goes to show you that after the rain is always the sunshine :)I love it!

going on 3 weeks now.... Feels like the past 3 weeks have been a "easier said than done" time. Everything I think is so hard to do. Its hard for me to walk away and not look back whenever everything reminds me of the times. I know I will create new ones I know I'll be great later I know i'll find happiness I know I have alot going for me but all of that is just hard to see when you have no one to share it. I just have to keep strong stay focused and look straight I know these emo posts will eventually go away and I'll be posting about a happier moment in my life. I know it. I just have to wait for it keep positive and live one moment at a time make new memories and rely on myself than again.......... easier said than done.

so many things to do so little time so much change so much stress.... I'll get through it just have to keep on moving..

have you ever taken a step back and taken a real hard look at how people see you? I know I have and I had come to the conclusion that I dont care what others think of me. I am a respectful person and if anyone knows me i'm all jokes and laughter my jokes may sometimes be harsh but nothing I wouldnt say to intentinally hurt anyone. It's odd to me how someone can judge another. I have friends who i hold dear I dont care what they do and who they do it does NOT matter to me because at the end of the day they do not pay my bills and they do not fix my problems all that is done by me and only me.. support on the other hand I can ALWAYS count on them and thats all i really ask from them for them to be there for me when I am confused or need support. I watch some of my friends just befriend people who are soooooooooooooo obviously wrong and bad people waiting to happen but theres nothing i can do I absolutely hate that I hate seeing people i care for get hurt and when you watch someone just run right into it it feels like crap. I just want to slap them and say "HEY! why?!" but its not my place and its not for to say so i dont.. I can only hope that they will look and see those who judge and those who dont. I mean everyone judges but only a friend will accept.

People who say they arent drama usually are the drama. Have you ever noticed that?.. pshhh i know I have! so many times. So i just mind my own business those people will usually conjure up something small and make it big its just the way they think... who knows its their perogative I dont really care unless they start to mess with me or anything I care for than thats when I get mad. I wouldnt stand up for anyone who didnt deserve it and I cant see stupid people talk down to anyone i care for.

I slept in this weekend and it was nice :) i loved it just video games work and sleep feels nice to just relax. I've always been used to be on the go everything everwhere plans people friends loves family all sorts of things.. Dont get me wrong I LOVE being a busy bee and having alot of events to do and go to but I havent been home for more than 2 weeks in a LONG time. I unpacked my "travel bag" and I actually can unpack and leave it that way its a little wierd but I have all these little travel bags everywhere that I dont know what to do with hahah so i just put it away. Its wierd not having to plan out the things i have to bring with me now its just my phone id and card thats it I dont need my duffle bag and my purse and magazines all that because i'm actually gonna come back home ater i'm done its wierd but i'll get used to it no problem. now I can focus on cleaning more since i have more time and hate to see a unclean room haahah doesnt mean I'll actually do it.. but anyhow Im coping with things well enough and I've prioritised my life as well as I can I just need it to come quickly. I know next year will be big for me it will offically be my FIRST year I will be alone everythign from events holidays to sleeping everything I will be alone to do it all by myself that has NEVER happened since last time i was fully single was when i was 17? yes its been that long but I will be fine I'm strong and I have a check list i have to attend to and when i'm done I know I'll be satisfied to really get what I want out of life.

:)

COULD NOT SLEEP

COULD NOT SLEEP! for the life of me... but i slept a little and am not hurting bad for it. Good thing I dont work my second job today. Althoguht i would really like to be working right now..... I am still paying bils and its taking a lil while but I am also coming closer and closer to my ultimate job in mind I remember a time... what was it? 14-15? something like I remember it was some odd years I used to make websites and flyer for car shows and carclubs it was impressive wht a 15 year old like me could design form the html to the graphics i did it all self taught. Not that I have forgotten any of that I just stopped learning after about 3 years and started bieng a teenager now I'm so far back that I know just as must as everyone else. I should hae pursued that par tof my brain instead of burning brain cells lol so I'm pursuing it again. Web programmer? yes maybe we'll see.. my mind may change tomorrow. either way I cant amkea big step until my bills are payed hopefully by summer I dont want tobe working two jobs in the summer. I plan to be out on the road with my baby spinning sircles just so i can feel the wind in my helmet. YA DIGGGGGGG! yay


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