Lifes a bitch and than you die

In the words of my Nas "Lifes a bitch and than you die"

live everyday as if its your last.... would I be working? probably not but I cant help it I dont find that quote realistic. Which brings me to being a realist and/or a dreamer... I love to day dream and I sure as hell can dream up a wonderful one.. you know the ones that get you smiling on your own by yourself like a wierdo yea one of those. hahaha but than I drop back to earth... BUT i really dont mind it.. I have learned a LONG time ago that deceit it right around the corner to scare and knock you off your horse when you least expect it. So i've learned to walk no matter how exciting the other ends looks never run its too risky you risk falling and skidding the ground with your face haaha...

Nothing is better than getting what you work for.. and truthfully i havent felt more fullfilled than ever I'm doing alot and I may be walking slowly to the exit of financial issue but at least i'm moving right? hahahaha either way I couldnt find anything more fullfilling than what i'm doing right now.. I know in the end I will be 10 times the person I was a year ago... I have a plan for everything EVERYTHING... from how I will wakeup to how I will go to sleep.. I priortise everything... it is probably why the last year has been so hard for me just not being in control of my finances and my life things were just hitting me from all directions and I couldnt stretch far enough to catch it all... but now i'm okay and there is finally light at the end of the tunnel... Jo is finally happy :)(financially)

I've been losing an incredible amount of weight I'm not sure if its the lack of eating or the lack or sleep or all of the walking i do at work 8 hours 5-6 days out of the week... who knows but I like it :) lets get it! i really need to lay off the cod after work.. I always cheat myself from 2 extra hours of sleep crazy being that i only have max of 6 hours of sleep to get in per day... I can feel myself aging so quickly its crazy shwayzeeee up in this mess hahaha but I wouldnt have it any other way...

"The secret to happiness is not in doing what one likes to do, but in liking what one has to do."

"While we pursue happiness, we flee from contentment"

"Relationships are alot like jumping off a building... it only hurts at the end"

"Happiness trully is stability and control" for me that is.


GOD! i've been itchin to drive.. I've had such an itch to touch a car its been soooooo crazy.. I miss drifting.. i miss squeeling tires I miss the adrenilin I miss it all!! i need to get on the road and I need to get on it real quick! just need suspension turbo cosmetic my car is fine...if not my car than the celice either way I hope to be back on the track by next summer. :)

Yea Random

Everyone has different morals good or bad. I for one have always been confident enough to know that I am strong well round opinionated person. In my meaning I can give it and I can take it. I will work for it and succeed in it. All I expect from people is to give me something interesting to live for. I dont consider myself to be someone who is closed off i'm actually really open when it comes to people... am I judgemental? yes who isnt.. hahah... I have a great understanding of myself the people around me and part of living is learning.. my mom says its a bad thing she says i'm a risk taker and not everyone likes that but not a day do I go regretting anything that has happened to me. I take everything and I learn from it.

Its funny how songs sometimes will speak for you I absolutely love it.. makes me feel that i'm not the only one going through it.. since i'm not worlds best at expressing feelings its nice to listen to someone else tell me the issues and for me to me able to say yes.. thats me.

Everyone hopes to get that caring, loving, wonderful, beautiful, humorous, smart person in their life, hands down those things are what majority want.. imagin that! yea than you get it but unfortunately those arent the only characteristics the person has they also are argumentative because they are smart they want love back because they are caring... than all of a sudden its too much? than what do you call yourself? picky? Is love really something you have to compromise with? something you have to give and take. Is there a perfect person? the sweetheart with the kindest heart could be the bum on the side will you take her in? I mean she does have the qualities you want but the only thing is shes broke... will you bathe and love her? of course not people are shallow like it or not you are shallow. People go forever searcing for the love of their lives and when they find it they put it on a pedastool and stare at it,but when the person starts to get tired and slouch do you tell her to keep standing straight up no matter how tired she is OR do you massage her and help you get back energy so she can go back to being the perfect person?

as I have lived my life my motto still stands.

Life is a like a burger its fine without the condimens but its perfect with the condimens take those away and its just plain again nothing more nothing less... live on your fine :)

its that time

its time to stop the procrastination and get to it... gotta get it all in line and exicute.. hopefully i'll succeed... past couple of weeks have been crazy for me just realizing myself and who I am and why. Almost feels like i need a revamp on myself. I've decided to just hide and just watch from the window. I've spent too many year doing the things i find fun when I shouldhave been focusing on myself. yup thats right i'm going MIA. times 10. I dont want to do anything anymore. just work school and work. its time to get it!

Changes

"Why is she like that?
why does she say that?
why does she do that?
who does she think she is?
I dont get her
Shes not bettter than anyone
Maybe she wants to be cool?
Maybe she thinks its funny?
Why would she say that?
Cant she be nicer?
Was that intentional?
What did she mean by that?
Does she think before she talks?
Its her age
its her upbringing
its her sisters
its her friends
its not ok
its not right
shes wrong
shes wrong
she has no room to talk
i hope that was a joke
shes not funny
she offends people
She should learn to be nicer
she should learn some communication skills
she should learn to be more sensitive
she should step down a knotch
she laughs at the wrong things
she should be quiet sometimes
she should think before she speaks
shes immature
she needs a reality check
someone needs to knock her down a knotch"

UPDATE!

Where do I start?!?!

I dropped off my handsome this morning he is catching a flight out to work in chi-town. I miss him already :( It still a mystery to me how I ever was happy without him. Corny as it is to say. Our relationship has not stopped being cliche and I'm happy for it. Lately I've been feeling down just out of it and stressed but I've tried to keep my head up through it all but I swear. ANY minute now I could burst into tears the kind that after i ball my eyes out i'll feel like a milliion dollars hahahaha. WHO KNOWS... when that will happen. I've been working out alot! lately I love it i love the strength I'm gaining and the cuts that are starting to form on my arms. Whats next? diet and more exercise i'm looking for a second job right now. Lifes money reality is kicking my ass right now!!

I've been looking for a everyday makeup and I think i've found it. I love love love my milk of magnesia! I am head over heels with it. I have the greasiest face in the world and I CANNOT rant enough about this. I have yet to find a oil control spray,. lotion, moisturizer...ect this is real deal the best thing for my face i just put it under I went to vegas and NOTHING came off. or move don my face and I put ALOT of makeup on. (gotta hide them acne scars)!

I have the ip4 and thank you for front facing camera. I've always been super paranoid to bring a mirror in my purse or bag since i'm afraid to break it. So this front facing camera is magic to my life right now and forever. I've facetimed alot lately morning and night with my beloved its great i like it alot I can see him smile :).. On another note my acne has gone out of freaking control so I've been on my julep ritual for a minute! it helps alot I just have to do it everyday until they are gone. I usually do it before i wash my face and while i'm playing C.O.D. which by the way has been super furstrating some days i'm good some days i'm screaming my life out. I cant really help it i've always been WAYYYY to competitive and high strung. Video games really doesnt help me as a person but neither does salt.. but i so it all anyways.

here are some pictures of the past time i've been mia.

ps: I need some qt with my qt lol HEEEEYOOOOOOOP

Its been a while friends

Its been a while friends and I've been oober busy traveling, working, gaming and hmmmm tryign to stay on track with school and work... I found an old blog i used to have earlier this year but i'm closing it directing everyone to this blog instead. SOOO!! welcome everyone!..

Its that time of the year again.. the new look time. I need to change it up if its the hair makeup anything. I've been working out alot and I'm starting to really like my little muscles i'm growing lol hahahah. Captain Cambo built them I've never had a strong upper body but i'm starting to equal out the two, which I dont mind at all.

I will post picture of random past months of fun WOOT!.



haha My sisters first photoshoot :)


stupid bra


We call her paparazzi


Capitan cambo and I in vegas


knocked out and he was awake I awoke after :)


Yea.......... Orginally he put up this picture from his 4g jokingly asking where his deoderant was.... wack! hahah a girl loves her makeup!


that skirt was short


my friends of the universe :)


this was in the elevator in our Hotel


i think this was the first day :)



that monga drank was BOMB!


My friends boat first time tubing man it was fun like a live video game :)


est.2002


TL chicken is worth it!

Lately

Its been crazy! no not really well i'm super trying to lose all this weight I like feeling sore it feels AWESOME! my fourth weekend was soooooo nice! lets RECAP!

Friday: karate kid....... good movie i actually liked it.. not too corny

Saturday: We stayed at my house on friday night and woke up super early adn took the ferry to San juan islands :) we ate on the dock and just walked around it was sooooooo nice and romantic than we went SHOPPING! I got so much stuff for cheap i'm talkinga bout 10 dollars for 100 dollar dresses. than we had a get toethr at his place with our friends omg SOOOOOOOOOOOO much food it was great though

Sunday: 3 bbqs too much drinking hahaha fun though! i dont remember anything after 11pm really hahah i'm so hyper when i'm drunk hahaha not sure why really.

Monday:Had another get together but at our friends place they bbqed it was fun than we all went to walk around the park that was nice. Babes got a dslr so we were messing with that alot hahahaha. SUPER nice pictures.











Thats all the pictures I'm lazy to take picture of all the stuff I got and all hahahhaha